Annoying Colleagues

Ok I know I've been annoyed with my colleagues in the past, but recently, the guy who works at the bar, Ivor, is really testing my patience.  He is only still working there because he has to a pay a mortgage, which really is a shit excuse "I'm sorry, I can't leave because I have a mortgage to pay!" I am sorry but I don't think I can take his crap any more. I was getting annoyed yesturday with his horrible carol singing in my ear as I try to sing. Even I can sing better than him, many people have told me I have a lovely singing voice but I don't think I do untill now. I could have punched in the stomach to wind him so he would shut the hell up. I tried looking for my own copy of the carols but I didn't find any spare.

But today, OMG I could have walked out with the way he treated me. I was working on the Restaurant, with my dear friend Ritch. We are more than capable of working the restaurant as we are the longest members of waiting staff. HOWEVER, Ivor decides to go into "manager" mode and start telling us to do our work. I am sorry, but he know how we do things in the restaurant? We had everything under control. Seriously, Ritch and I are a great team but Ivor goes and knocks me off balance and makes me angry. First off he tells me "When" I need to clear a table. I have my own eye's, I can see when they are all finished. I am not a fucking dumbass you is blind. I've looked after the restaurant on my own many times and I've had no problem. I was even told that for the lunch time shift, he was sent home early because of his attitude.

Later on, Ivor decides to go and refil the gravy boat from a table, and he comes out from the kitchen saying "You should have done this". I turn round and said to him " then you should have asked me to". I am getting fed up with his attitude but when he does come up to talk to me, he is like two inches away from my nose. I am sorry but the only person I want that close to my face is my fiance.

Oh but to top off the evening with constantly telling Ritch and I that a table has finished eaten is driving me round the freaking bend. Even when I am about to check to see if a table has finished, he moans at me and tells me to clear. Then when he comes to help us take out the food to the table, it pisses me off even more because he isn't very good at what he does and when he is meant to be working at the bar, he doesn't even stay there at all. He wonders off and decides he will come and piss off Ritch and I by thinking he is helping, when he is making things worse.

Then when Ritch and myself are discussing what to do about put the tables pre-ordered food on the till, he goes and says "am I just going to do your work for you, you lazy *something*?" I openly said "well leave it alone then". If someone is going to complain about doing other people's work for them, when they are meant to be working at a different post, you don't constantly tell them what to do and then complain when they "decide" they are going to do the work instead.

If he attitude does no improve before my shift tomorrow, then I am going to scream. Oh and another thing, he is the nosiest fucking prick a fucking live. He is trying to get me to date someone on the shit hole that is the Isle of Wight. I am sorry, but I've dated a few people here and none of them even come close to my fiance, well he is my fiance.. DUH!! I really do hate it when people who don't know me, try to tell me what to do. He is really going to get an ear ful tomorrow if he pisses me off like he did today.

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Parents Projecting onto their children.

I don't know how many people have ever found themselves in this situation but I am getting annoyed by it. I really do think that when a parent has a child above the age of 12, they should just let them find their own identity and ways to live their own life. I've not had the best relationship with my parents which is probably why I hate it when they try to control my life too much.

Also I am 22 almost 23 years old, yet they insist on telling me what not to do and then get annoyed when I do the opposite. Like my new hair cut for example, I've had a lot of people say it really suites me compared to my parents who say it looks horrible. Ok they might be loosing their little who really they lost when i turned 16. I am not a child any more and I can do what I want. Its just so frustrating when my parents tell me what to do.

Another thing is that Mother doesn't think I am ready to get married because my bf is in NY. She won't ever understand what I feel because she wants me to be this little child and stay that way. The obedient child who does what they are told. If I was to follow in my mothers footsteps, then I would have gotten married when I was 20 and that isn't me at all.

MY parents just don't seem to let me find my own personality and life style because in their eye's I am still young. It just gets really hard to find the support I want to live my life really.

Finally I am back!

I've not had the net for over a week and I got soooo bored, even playing on the Wii or DS or PSP didn't help, I got bored of them too easily just playing by myself.

But alas, I am back now and hoping to get back in GFX and maybe trying a few wallpapers.. although mine really do suck. But Really I should be working on my website to try and practise what I've during my web designing course.

Anyway.. i doubt anyone really noticed I wasn't around for a while, but you will see me online now obviously, as I am posting this entry so there :P

Nintendo Fan!

Well after buying myself my own Wii console and enjoying it so much. I went out today and also brought my own DS lite. I know its going to seem crazy to some people but honestly, it was the Brain training starter pack so its not so bad. I won't be buying games for the DS Lite that I already have the on Wii, that would just be stupid and a waste of money.

So now that is 3 consoles I own.... wow that really is a lot of money spent within two years but I've been working hard and tend to go shopping to help cheer myself up, Like any gal would really but I do make sure I monitor my spending habbits just to keep things in check. But now that Christmas is soon upon us, I will only be buying gifts for my family and not on myself. I've already asked for the Rockband on the Wii :P (sly thing that I am). Its going to be cool to play with Eddie and my best friend Ellen when we all move in together. Hopefully we will have my friend kyle join us too but that is something we will have to discuss with him about. At least then, having friends around for drinks is going to be fun.... I just wanna see a tipsy person trying to play on the wiiFit or something just to see how bad they do it.

Motivation

I know in my last entry I said I would focus more on studying. But since I started doing this website, it seems that I have been so focused on getting it all set up that I haven't even gotten round to properly studying. I know it is bad and I should really work on getting a better job that isn't going to keep holding me back. Its just that I've been so side tracked with coding the skins and getting it all the way I want it, that I suppose really, I've been thinking that working on the site is helping me with my studies, which it has in a way.

However, now that I have got things the way I want it, I can now focus on getting the studying back up to where it should be and finally finishing this web design course. I just lack the motivation to really get things sorted and to do what really needs to be done, which is to stop sitting at my computer all day trying to figure out what to do when there is things I could really be doing.

Like today, I spent most of my time working a painting (which can been seen on my gallery page). Its for a navity picture competition I think. My mother said I should do one and that everyone in the family is going to do it. So that should be fun. But it isn't really studying web design now is it?!

Web Designing

A couple of weeks ago I had eye opener if you like about where my life is really going. With my current job, where I have been working there for a year in December. The only kind of promotion I have gotten is that I now work at the bar as well as the restaurant. Its not exactly a big step forward but it is something at least.

However I have been neglecting my studies in Web Design for a very long time and its about time i get it all done so I can get a better job and leave my current job. I've already made myself a study plan and make sure that i do around 21 hours a week, its just that I really need to get my head down and do it. Making this web site is what I do inbetween studying to help practise my skills as a future web designer. I really do want to focus on designing web pages as a career. I wanted to study web design while I was at university but really I was only able to just touch the surface of dreamweaver and it didn't really help me alot. Of course now I can really do more than I want and start learning; PHP, MySQL, ColdFusion, XML, Visual C#, AJAX, Java, JavaScript, Frontpage 2000 and a few others.

Now I plan to make weekly updates on my progress and really see the studying as a project and set goals and evaluate my progress.