Thursday, February 28, 2008

Does it really matter?

Well I've been wondering if it is even worth me moving out my parents house and find a 9-5 job. I mean if its going to be cancelled for when I move, is there really a point. I really love my independence and I don't like to burden anyone but if I do try this, will it be worth it all as it will only be chucked away?


I know that I need to get out of this house. But I just wonder if anything I plan to do is really worth it. I really would like to set up my dance classes and help teach contemporary and I might get more teaching opportunities too in Autumn. But if I am moving, it won't make a difference. My aim of a dance class is to improve stamina and to widen ones dance vocabulary. I can't do all that in one session. I want it to last for as long as possible and work in dancing. But when I move, its a different story.


see when I do move, I will letting dancing go, as it is going to bring in enough money in the way I want. America already has established contemporary companies so there won't be anything different that I can bring. So I am going to forget about doing dance and just focus on getting a job that will help bring in money instead. As I doubt that any form of dancing will get enough money into the bank.

Wednesday, February 27, 2008

Crapy Crap crap

[color=#80a0ff]Well If you couldn't tell, I've not really been the Happy Cheerful Sazzy since last week. Too much crap is coming at me in one go. So my week has been a very depressing one to say the least I think. But not self-harming occurred if people start to wonder.


Well I am finally moving out of my parents house on 30th March, or just before then maybe. To go live on a haunted lane, how cool does that sound. But really it doesn't seem haunted at all, it just scares my best friend a little I suppose. But if it means more independence then its better and not having anyone moan at me, but let me do what I want.


Then there is the fact of me being scared to move to America. I dunno why but I get really upset about it when I think about it. Its going to be really tough and I know I am not that strong so I feel like I might crack. Hopefully I won't but there is a possibility. I dunno, its just a bit thing to do and I am scared shitless about it. [/color]