So What's New...?

It feels like forever since I created a journal entry..... sorry for not updating so much!

Things have been really hectic recently. And now it doesn't help that I seem to have a cold, which is so annoying but I'm glad to have some days off work to recover. At least working part-time kind of helps. But I've been really busy at work and it seems its not really helping that much. At the end of the day I just need to think about the money more than anything...

If there is one question that is annoying at the moment, its the "Are you ready for Christmas?" one. I'm not ready at all, and to be quite honest.... Its the last thing on my mind. I have a chance to go Christmas shopping this week, maybe on Wednesday if this cold goes away by then. However, I really am stuck as to what to buy people. I do have the money to buy presents this year. Its just that it is hard to buy presents for 3 guys. My brothers aren't really into similar things than me and my Father is always hard to buy for. I have some kind of idea as to what to buy my Mother this year, its just being able to buy her present when she isn't with me as we tend to go shopping together.

My drawing skills have managed to decrease a great deal. I just don't think I'm improving at all at the moment. I thought I was getting better and my [link] cheered me up a little as I thought I had finally gotten hold of my own style. HOWEVER.. I went to do a rough sketch [link] and failed miserably! I really hate the eye's... they just don't look right and I couldn't correct them no matter what I did. It was bad enough that I restarted that piece three times

I've even been neglecting my Japanese studies... well what I'm learning on my own. I've even tried to translate two new songs but that is very slowly progressing. I think that I've pushed it all to one side while I wait to hear that I didn't get a place on the JET Programme. I'm sure when I have more time off that I will get back into it all. As I really would love to be fluent in Japanese some time during my life.

Weeks Holiday

This holiday really has been weird.... I've popped into work too many times even on my Day's off. I guess I really a glutton for punishment. But at least it was for other things rather than actually working a shift. So I can't really complain.

Plus I was able to finally send off my JET application pack. I really hope that I did everything right. But I am glad to have sent it. Was really nervous at the time though. I would love to get an interview but I guess I just have to wait...

I Wish This Pain Would Go Away

Its been almost a month now since I found out I have an inflammatory infection within my chest wall between my lungs and my rib cage. So it can be painful to breathe sometimes as it hurts and I can even find it hard to breathe. At first I was told to take paracetamol and ibuprofen for two days. Yet, the week after I went back to the doctors and they said I had to go back on the painkillers until it clears. I have no idea how long it takes but last Tuesday I thought I would stop taking them and see how it goes. Yet after Church on Sunday, the pain came back and now I'm back on the pain killers.

Its really annoying as I always seem to be the one getting really ill in my family. No one else has had glandular fever or an inflammatory infection but me. Maybe I have a low immune system to illnesses such as these? I even had the flu last year where I slept for three day's. Things just seem to effect me badly and it can get depressing. On another note, things just seem to be at a stand still at the moment. With problems with references for the JET Programme and then with the situation regarding my house. It just feels like everything is happening at once. I'm sure its just to watch me struggle.

The only thing that has kept me sane recently is watching movies, which seems to be two every day so far for the past two weeks. Even though they are all Japanese movies, They are still really great to watch, well I enjoyed watching them at least. I'm sure there isn't really many people who would understand though.

I'm Still Alive!

I'm sorry everyone who has been wondering where I am... I'm sure not many have noticed that I've been quiet a lot recently. I've been busy with work and also I have been doing a lot of work at my own house. Its getting close to the painting stage and then it just needs some flooring and I can move in!!! I bought my house last year, and its been slow but I really can't wait till its done.

Now to prove I'm still drawing, I'm working a large Dual Screen Katekyo Hitman Reborn! fan art piece. Its of Vongola Guardians and Simon Guardians. I've been working on it slowly for the past two weeks, so please keep an eye out for it once its uploaded and tell me what you think!!!

ふたり by 松下優也 Translation

Track: ふたり
Artist: 松下優也
Released: 2010

Japanese	English
ねぇ 君のことは 誰より そう わかっているつもりでいた その心が 離れるわけないんだって 思ってた さよならと告げるように 君は つなぐ手をゆっくり ほどいていった	My dear, who was likely to know Why you intended to Leave this heart without any thought Telling you such a Goodbye As slowly these connected hands began to unwind
君だけを 想ってるのに くるしいのに 言えないまま 今 ふたりは この想いを 静かに 抱きしめてる そっと	Only you Only feeling this agonizing pain Nothing left to say Now two people This feeling, silently, I'll embrace Quietly
もう 傷つけても 傷ついても そのすべてを 離せなくて 無理に笑う その笑顔も 切ないほど いとしい	Don't say anything at all I'll force a smile and a laugh It's so painful dear You gave me happiness At the end at least But what in return
幸せをくれた君に せめて 最後くらい 何かを返したいのに	You gave me happiness At the end at least But what in return
悲しみを 隠せるほど 大人じゃない 強くもない 押さえきれず 溢れる想い 涙にすり替わってく そっと	Just hide the sadness Adults are not strong Holding onto their feelings Gently replacing the tears
どうして 別れが答えなんだろう どうして 絆は途切れてしまうの 失う痛みに 心が負けてしまいそうだよ 今も君を...	How can I understand when I don't know the answer Why would you cut off our bonds I've lost my heart to pain I knew I would lose you still...
こんなにも 想ってるのに くるしいのに 言えないまま また ふたりが	Well this Only feelings this agonizing pain Nothing let to say. Now two people I pray will meet somewhere
会えることを どこかで祈るよ 悲しみを 隠せるほど 大人じゃない 強くもない 押さえきれず 溢れる想い 涙にすり替わってく	Just hide the sadness Adults are not strong Holding onto their feelings Gently replacing the tears

Now this song is really sad. When I broke up with my boyfriend, This song was about how I felt in some ways. It even made me cry sometimes when I was singing along to it.

欲望に満ちた青年団 by ONE OK ROCK Translation

Track: 欲望に満ちた青年団
Artist: ONE OK ROCK
Released: 2007

Japanese	English
一度はあの光を見たんだよ　とてもキレイで でも今思えば汚かった　あれはいわゆるBad Day Dreams 光が眩し過ぎて周りが見えず　ただただ日々を 棒に振ってたあの日　今だから笑えるよ一度はあの幕を開けたんだよ　とても重くて プレッシャー、イヤ味それに勝つために　ただ嫌なヤツで そして気が付くと真っ暗な部屋に一人ぼっちだった 終わった…。もう戻れない…。なんて…。歩くのも止めた…。	Once I saw a very beautiful light! But now if I think about it, it was dirty, that so called BAD DAY DREAMS Light was dazzling that all around was visible Only only those bright days The bar did shake that day but now I can laughOnce I opened that curtain, was very heavy PRESSURE, the disgusting taste you get in order to win just an awful guy And when I noticed, I was in a pitch dark room alone I'm Finished.... Unable to return.... what.... I've even stopped walking
でもI'm not alone. I'm not alone We're not, We're not, We're not alone お金じゃ買えないもの手に入れて	But I'm not alone. I'm not alone We're not alone, we're not, we're not alone Money can't buy what is put in my hands
もう一度光浴びて　そして今度は騙されぬように 僕らは今目指すよ　欲望に満ちた青年団 誰かが言った言葉　それすらその時は流して 今になって気付いたよ　欲望に負けた少年団	Once again bathed in the light and now I won't be fooled We are aiming now Young adults full of desires Someone said the words that even now wash away Now I've noticed young adults succumbed to desires
So, I know you know? You know I know? We have, We have, We have grown 捕らわれないようにと上向いて歩く	So I know you know? You know I know? We have, we have, we have grown No more restrictions so I can get up and walk
もう一度光浴びて　そして今度は騙されぬように 僕らは今目指すよ　欲望に満ちた青年団 誰かが言った言葉　それすらその時は流して 今になって気付いたよ　欲望に負けた少年団	Once again bathed in the light and now I won't be fooled We are aiming now Young adults full of desires Someone said the words that even now wash away Now I've noticed Young adults succumbed to desires

Signal by KAT-TUN Translation

Track: Signal
Artist: KAT-TUN
Released: 2006

Japanese	English
Hey girl　教えて　どんな夢見て 一人ぼっち　夜明け待ったの? Hey boy　人ごみに 隠れてもしょーがない ありふれた常識　この街じゃ非常識	Hey Girl tell me what kind of dream you saw Alone, awaiting the dawn? Hey Boy in the crowd There is no hiding In this town that's lacking common sense
Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　切り替えて What’s goin’ on　乗り越えて I’m movin’ on いつもそうしてんじゃない Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　チカチカと Just movin’ on　消えそうな 情熱は　それぞれの胸に	Take it easy now What's goin' on make changes What's goin' on get over it I'm movin' on Isn’t it what we always do? Take it easy now What's goin' on its irritating Just movin' on like this Passion is lost in each heart
癒されちゃ　もの足りない… 頑張るだけじゃ　救われない… きまじめ過ぎても 望む場所に立てない… 瞬間を永遠に　心で切り取って 恐れずにトラブルに ダイブしてみろ Life goes on !	It's not enough to be healed... Struggling alone won't save us... Even if you hope You can't stand where you wish... Cut that moment out of your mind forever Without fear of troubles dare to DIVE Life goes on!
Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　切り替えて What’s goin’ on　乗り越えて I’m movin’ on いつもそうしてんじゃない Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　チカチカと Just movin’ on　消えそうな 情熱は　それぞれの胸に	Take it easy now What's goin' on make changes What's goin' on get over it I'm movin' on Isn’t it what we always do? Take it easy now What's goin' on its irritating Just movin' on like this Passion is lost in each heart
Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　しなやかに What’s goin’ on　したたかに I’m movin’ on みんな生きてるんじゃない Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　わがままに Just movin’ on　危うげに 俺たちは　今日も生きてるんじゃない	Take it easy now What's goin' on gracefully What's goin' on soundly I'm movin' on Isn't it how we live? Take it easy now What's goin' on selfishly Just movin' on dangerously Isn't it how we're living today?
My girl　ここへ　おいで ほら　Yeah Your heart　決して　ひとりじゃない 話してごらん	My girl come here hey yeah Your heart is never alone Talk to me
飛び交う電波　鳴り止まぬ電話 どこもかしこも一度見たMember 行き場もなくて　『独り』怖くて 沈めてく自分　喧騒の中に 目的もなくたむろするEveryday だけど何も見付からぬAny day 心配すんじゃねぇ We are all the same お前らみんな秘めたPossibility	Flying around the airwaves phone keeps ringing Everywhere, a once seen Member Without a place to go fear of being "Alone" Sure to sink myself in the commotion Aimless hanging around Everday But not finding anything Any day Don't worry You all hold the Possibility
Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　切り替えて What’s goin’ on　乗り越えて I’m movin’ on いつもそうしてんじゃない Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　チカチカと Just movin’ on　消えそうな 情熱は　それぞれの胸に	Take it easy now What's goin' on make changes What's goin' on get over it I'm movin' on Isn’t it what we always do? Take it easy now What's goin' on its irritating Just movin' on like this Passion is lost in each heart
Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　しなやかに What’s goin’ on　したたかに I’m movin’ on みんな生きてるんじゃない	Take it easy now What's goin' on gracefully What's goin' on soundly I'm movin' on Isn't it how we live?
Take it easy now What’s goin’ on　わがままに Just movin’ on　危うげに 俺たちは　今日も生きてるんじゃない	Take it easy now What's goin' on selfishly Just movin' on dangerously Isn't it how we're living today?

Answer Is Near By ONE OK ROCK Translation

Track: Answer Is Near
Artist: ONE OK ROCK
Released: 2011

Japanese	English
I think this way 幾通りもあるその問いの答えはもう ただ原理や理論に従って導き出す なんの変哲もないAnswer	I think this way There is many answers to that question Just following according to principles and theories What a mediocre Answer
(You know that)Come on! Come on! You hear me? Everybody, Hello! Hello! なあきっとこの世に正解もハズレもホントはないはずだから Wake up! Right now! Don't turn your back on me Come on! Come on! You stand here alive The answer is inside of me!!	(You know that)Come on ! Come on! You hear me? Everybody Hello! Hello! Hay Surely In this world there really should be right and wrong so... Wake up! Right now! Don't turn your back on me Come on! Come on! You stand here alive The Answer is inside of me!!
今を生きることは簡単じゃなくて ただ楽しけりゃいいってもんでもなくて 明日明後日の自分に 何が起ころうと責任を持てるかどうかさ (Are you seeing it, you and me)	Its not an easy matter to live now Its just about having fun The day after tomorrow, my tomorrow No matter what happens, will take responsibility? Somehow (Are you seeing it, you and me)
Come on! Come on! You hear me? Everybody, Hello! Hello! なあもっと言葉や想い強く心(ここ)に溜め込んどいてさ Stand up! Right now! 遥か先をも描いてこう You stand here alive The answer is inside of me!!
君の思う当たり前、君にとって当たり前かな? 君の思う当たり前、僕にとって当たり前かな? どう思う? さあどうだろう? これ自体がもうナンセンスすぎるかな? 答えはない? じゃあなんだろう? また僕はふりだしに oh。。。	Your thoughts are obvious, Are they obvious to you? Your thoughts are obvious, are they obvious to me? What do you think? Well what is it? This is too much nonsense isn't it? No answer? What is it? Back to the start again Oh...
Hello! Hello! この声は届いてんだろう? ああきっとこの世に正解もハズレも間違いなくないんだから (Wake up! Right now!) Wake up now (Don't turn your back on me) (Come on! Come on!) You still stand here alive 死ぬ間際に悔いはないと言えるように生きてたいだけ!! (Stand up! Right now!) You know the answer is (Wake up! Right now!) inside of me!!	Hello! Hello! Is this voice reaching you? Aah Surely in this world there is no mistaking right and wrong so... (Wake up! Wake up!) Wake up now (Don't turn your back on me) (Come on! Come on!) You stand here alive I just want to live so I have no regrets before I die!! (Stand up! Right now!) You know the answer is (Wake up! Right now!) inside of me!!
You know the answer is inside of me!!	You know the answer is inside of me!!

October

I really can't wait for October to come along!! I'm patiently waiting but its just starting to get too much!

Mostly because I pre-ordered ONE OK ROCK's 5th Album and I'm really looking forward to listening to it. I totally love their new singles so the album is really going to worth the wait. I just wish I could skip September and get to October already!

Also, October is when the application period for JET opens. I've just got to ask my references to confirm they will be ok with it. Then its down to applying!

And how can I forget...... HALLOWEEN! The best day of the year! when we can finally celebrate in the darkness of night, I really really really want to celebrate it this year in the proper way. None of that boring "oh its Halloween" but to go all out, dress up, and enjoy myself!

Its Frustrating

So many things have been playing around in my mind recently. It almost feels like torture really. I really am the kind of person who will beat themselves up about something. So, in a way, I kind of inflict this pain on myself. I really am starting to feel useless. Any thing I try to do, and I mess it up.

These past four months really feel like an eternity. After ending a relationship with someone who really loved me, but because of the distance I felt so lonely and pressured. I started to doubt things, but the more I doubted, the more secluded I became. I really love him and he was the first person to really accept me for who I was. But I just couldn't hold on any longer. I know that I should have just spoke about things with him. But I didn't know how. Its hard to tell someone you love that there isn't a way for us to live together as we both feel that we can't live in each other's countries. I wish there was another way, but what does is done. I just feel so ashamed to being who I am and how I felt.

I'm twenty-five years old, yet I really don't think I will ever say that I'm a place in my life where I want to be. I know where I would like to be, but I just don't think anything will happen the way I want it to. I've been through so many stages in my life where I tried something different, but it didn't work out. Even now, I'm working towards hopefully getting a place in the JET Programme. Yet I keep doubting myself because I don't think I'm good enough to apply. I've tried to tell myself that I might as well try to apply, otherwise I'm going to regret it. I would really love to go to Japan and above all, help teach English and possibly dance too.

However, in the back of my mind I feel like even though I will apply, nothings going to happen and I'm going to get rejected. I know I shouldn't think that way. I just can't help it. I should have more confidence with things like this but I just can't help it.

I just want to do something in my life that I can be really happy about. I'm happy that I went to University and graduated. But I want to do something to show what I learnt back then. I really don't want it to go to waste. But at the moment..... that's exactly what I feel like. I graduated four year's ago, yet I've done nothing to show what I did. Even though I don't really know how going to Japan is going to help really. I just feel that if I'm in Japan that I can experience something completely different and be given a new lease of life. I can try different things and be glad that I tried them. At the moment, I feel like I've fallen into this routine where I'm doing the same things day-in-day-out and its not getting me any where.

Maybe I'm just subconsciously restricting myself because I've been living in this house for far too long and there isn't anything new for me to experience. I really need to get out.

I just want something to work out, and work out properly!! Is that really too much to ask for?

新しい日に新しいスタート!

Well things seem to be getting better. I think its because I'm getting excited about apply for the JET Programme, even though there is no guarantee that I will get a place. But its worth trying. I just need to get my references sorted out pretty soon so I can apply as soon as I can in October.

Wish me luck!

I am looking forward to going if I get a place. It really will be a lifetime experience. Evenmore so as I will be helping teach English. I might even trying and see if they will let me teach contemporary dance classes too and hopefully take part in their dance classes... but who knows. Fingers crossed!

Still Alive!

Well Just to let you know that I am still around! If you couldn't tell by the recent Digital Portrait uploads and my new Blog Skin, Which I hope looks ok. Although its very simple, I didn't really know what else to do with it. Although I will not be working on re-skinning my website to match :P

Ok..... dakara...

Recently I've been hooked on watching Cartoon KAT-TUN. I've currently got like 86 episodes download or something... I really can't stop watching it. I had to force myself to stop just to sleep Monday night (>.<) It is interesting to hear more about KAT-TUN and some guests can be really funny... although the Cosplay maniac gal kind of scares me. She was in episode 72 or something... Where she made Tanaka and Akanishi cosplay. I really hated the fact that she really over the top.... could just be me though.

Otherwise, My Japanese is kind of getting there. Although, I've not done as much as I would like. But I'm hoping it will help towards my application for the JET Programme which I hope to apply for a placement in October.
Wish me luck!!

Favourite Japanese Actors/Singers

Well seeing as I've gone over enough time's about how much I like certain actor's. I think its time to finally explain more about why. Now I've not been watching Japanese Drama's for a long time so I know how some information can change etc. So please forgive me for any mistakes that I make. However, since I've managed to watch a fair few, I've already found some actors that I really like. So here they are;

Name: 亀梨和也 (Kamenashi Kazuya)
Artist: "KA" in KAT-TUN
"Shuuji" in Shuuji to Akira with Yamashita Tomohisa
Actor: 3 nen B gumi Kinpachi Sensei 5 as Fukagawa Akihiko (1999)
Gokusen 2 as Odagiri Ryu (2005)
Nobuta wo Produce as Kiritani Shuji (2005)
Yuuki as Yuuki (2006)
Tatta Hitotsu no Koi as Kanzaki Hiroto (2006)
1 Pound no Fukuin as Hatanaka Kosaku (2008)
Kami no Shizuku as Kanzaki Shizuku (2009)
Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge as Takano Kyohei (2010)
Birth-date: 1986-Feb-23
Birthplace: Edogawa, Tokyo, Japan

Kamenashi is the unofficial leader of KAT-TUN. He definitely has a voice that lead a group (♥_♥) And his sex appeal.... DAMN! Especially recently. The guy buffed right up and its made him even more sexy than he previously was. He can dance really well and I wouldn't mind being his Choreographer/Dance partner if he is need of one. Out of the songs that he sings... Kizuna is my absolute favourite of his. It is really well sung and I could really hear it on repeat for hours. But next to that.. Sweet is great too. Especially if you have seen KAT-TUN World Tour NO MORE PAIN 2010.. Mix that song with him as a vampire.. Total HEAVEN! I really have to stop myself from watching that over and over because its just too good to keep staring at it.

I think I started to like him because he really is an amazing singer and boy can he sway his hips (>.

Now I first saw Kamenashi in Yamato Nadeshiko Shichi Henge. I started to watch it because I really liked the Anime but I have yet to read the manga, so I thought I might as well try the Live Action. So glad I did! Kame (for short) was really great as Kyohei and I had to see what he was like playing other characters. So I watched Tatta Hitotsu no Koi. He was such a cutie in that series. Just a shame he smoked T__T I'm not really that keen on smokers. But I got over it. Then I just watched what ever series I could with him in it. Although, it soon after watching Yamato Nadeshiko that I was looking around for more bands to listen to. I thought I would give more Japanese Pop bands a try as they are rather big in Japan. So I started to listen to KAT-TUN. It was then that I made the connection "Oh so that's why the actor playing Kyohei can really move his hips". Yes, strange thing to think, but I am a rather strange person. But I really liked their Break the Records - by you & for you - so I so got the rest of the albums. And then I went into fan girl mode... I listened to the singles and watched the PV's for their released singles.

Name: 松下優也 (Matsushita Yuya)
Artist: U
Actor: Quartet (2011)
Birth-date: 1990-May-24
Birthplace: Kobe, Japan

The first time I heard a Matsushita track was when I watched the first episode of Durarara!! last year. Trust Me was the first ED track to the Anime. It really is a great track, if you haven't listened to it, DO IT NOW! His singles are great! I did listen to his album as a friend of my recommended it to me. Totally love it! I tend to listen to all of Matsushita's tracks over the weekend. It really cheers me up. Although once, Futari made me cry. I don't even know what he is singing about, but I had tears dripping down my cheeks. I think it was just the atmosphere of the song that set me off. That and I had just split up from my boyfriend and Futari means "Two People" so I guess that didn't help either.

Since I was really really liking Matsushita's tracks, I thought I would like to see him act. So when Quartet came out, I had to see it. It really is a good series and Matsushita is great. His dancing really paid off for the choreographed fighting scene's. I know that is in a new drama this summer, which will be interesting to watch.

Name: 三浦春馬 (Haruma Miura)
Actor - Series: Saigo no Bansan (2011)
Taisetsu na Koto wa Subete Kimi ga Oshiete Kureta (2011)
Bloody Monday 2 as Takagi Fujimaru (2010)
Samurai High School as Mochizuki Kotaro (2009)
Gokusen 3 SP as Kazama Ren (2009)
Bloody Monday as Takagi Fujimaru (2008)
Galileo: Episode Zero as young Manabu (2008)
Gokusen 3 as Kazama Ren (2008)
Binbo Danshi as Shiraishi Ryo (2008)
14 Sai no Haha as Kirino Satoshi (2006)
Children (2006)
Komyo ga Tsuji (2006)
Unfair (2006)
Ima Ai ni Yukimasu (2005)
Fight as Okabe Kiyoshi (2005)
Division 1 Aozora Koi Hoshi (2005)
Musashi as Jotaro (2003)
Manatsu no Merry Christmas (2000)
Doyo Wide Gekijo (1995)
Actor - Movies:Kimi ni Todoke / From Me To You (2010)
Gokusen: The Movie as Kazama Ren (2009)
Crows ZERO II (2009)
Naoko (2008)
Negative Happy Chainsaw Edge as Noto (2007)
Koizora as Hiro(2007)
Akihabara@Deep (2006)
Catch A Wave (2006)
Mori no Gakko (2002)
Sennen no Koi - Hikaru Genji Monogatari (2002)
Nile (1999)
Jubaku Spellbound (1999)
Birth-date: 1990-Apr-05
Birthplace: Ibaraki, Japan

The first time I ever heard about Haruma was when I heard that Kimi ni Todoke was getting a Live Action movie. I'm a huge fan of the manga and the anime. So it was great to hear that it was getting a LA as well. I really did think he was so cute as kazehaya-kun. I don't think anyone can play him. But he does that cool, popular, cute appeal so it just had to be him. He was great to watch so I went to look for other movies with him in. Although, I didn't find a movie but I found the series Bloody Monday instead. Now I had read the manga and really liked reading it. But to have Haruma play Fujimaru was an added bonus.

Even though Haruma can play really popular guys really well, when I saw him in Koizora... OMG!!! I cried at the end. He really can play any role to the best of his abilities. And he can pull off have bleached hair and still look really cute:P Although, he was super cute when he played Ren in Gokusen 3 and the movie. He was totally the reason for watching them. It was just an added bonus when Kame was in Gokusen 2 and the Movie as well.

Name: 小栗旬 (Oguri Shun)
Actor - Series: Arakawa Under the Bridge (2011)
Sayonara Aruma (2010)
Juui Dolittle (2010)
Kikoku (2010)
Wagaya no Rekishi (2010)
Tokyo DOGS as Takakura So (2009)
Smile as Hayashi Seiji (2009)
Tenchijin as Ishida Mitsunari (2009)
Ketto! Rojinto (2009)
Hanazakari no Kimitachi e SP as Sano Izumi (2008)
Yume wo Kanaeru Zo as Nogami Kohei (2008)
Binbo Danshi as Koyama Kazumi (2008)
Detective Conan 2 as Kudo Shinichi (2007)
Hanazakari no Kimitachi e as Sano Izumi (2007)
Hana Yori Dango 2 as Hanazawa Rui (2007)
Detective Conan 1 as Kudo Shinichi (2006)
Densha Otoko Deluxe as Minamoto Munetaka (2006)
Yuuki as Hama (2006)
El Poporazzi ga Yuku!! (2006)
Hana Yori Dango as Hanazawa Rui (2005)
24 no Hitomi (2005)
Densha Otoko as Minamoto Munetaka (2005)
Koto as Mizuki Shinichi (2005)
Yoshitsune as Kajiwara Kagesue (2005)
Aikurushii as Yaguchi Junichi (2005)
Kyumei Byoto 24 Ji 3 as Kono Kazuya (2005)
Taika no Kaishin as Nakano Oenomiko (2005)
Division 1 Hungry Kid (2004)
Honto ni Atta Kowai Hanashi Yomi no Mori (2004, SP)
Stand Up!! as Enami Koji (2003)
Gokusen SP as "Uchi" / Uchiyama Haruhiko (2003)
Okaasan to Issho (2003)
Tengoku no Daisuke e as Sato Daisuke (2003)
Gokusen as "Uchi" / Uchiyama Haruhiko (2002)
Ao to Shiro de Mizuiro as Kishida Takumi (2001)
Heart (NHK, 2001)
Cherry (チェリー) as Yamazaki Hiroshi (2001)
Pure Soul as Takahara Manabu (2001)
X Sensei (X先生) as Hamazaki Teruki (2001)
Hensyuo (2000)
Ashita wo Dakishimete (2000)
Summer Snow as Shinoda Jun (2000)
Aoi Tokugawa Sandai (2000)
Great Teacher Onizuka SP as Yoshikawa Noboru (1999)
Great Teacher Onizuka as Yoshikawa Noboru (1998)
Sore Ga Kotae Da! (1997)
Shouri no Megami (1996)
Hideyoshi (1996)
Kaiki Club (1995)
Hachidai Shogun Yoshimune (1995)
Actor - Movies: Surely Someday (director - 2010)
Tajomaru (2009)
Gokusen: The Movie (2009)
Crows ZERO II (2009)
Hana Yori Dango -Final- (2008)
Surf's Up (Japanese dub) (2007)
Crows ZERO (2007)
Sukiyaki Western Django (2007)
Kisaragi (2007)
Sakuran (2007)
Otoshimono / Ghost Train (2006)
Waters (2006)
Rinne / Reincarnation as Onishi Kazuya (2006)
Life on the Long Board (2005)
Azumi 2 as Ginkaku (Toho, 2005)
The Neighbor No. Thirteen as Juzo Murasaki (2005)
Is. A (2004)
Haken Kuroitsu no Tsubasa (2004)
Spring Story (2003)
Robot Contest (Toho, 2003)
Azumi as Nachi (Toho, 2003)
Hitsuji no Uta (2002)
Shiawase Kazoku Keiga as Hirose (1999)
Birth-date: 1982-Dec-26
Birthplace: Kodaira, Tokyo, Japan

I first saw Oguri in Gokusen. I was really seeing what it was like and I think he was the best actor in the first series. I'm not really much of a Matsumoto Jun fan. Especially if you have Oguri in the same drama. It just doesn't work. He really is an amazing actor. I could sit and watch his drama's and movies for ages. Its just a shame that I've only ever seen a few drama's he has been in. Including Bindo Danshi, Hana Yori Dango and Tokyo Dogs, which I so surprised to see he was in it. Although it did take me a while to recognize him.

However, I haven't really seen many drama's or movies in the list. But those that I have seen, really were worth watching. Especially Crows Zero movies! I watched those two movies back to back. TOTALLY LOVED THEM! I feel like re-watching them right now. Oguri was perfect for the role of Genji. Crow Zero movies really are one of the great Oguri movies! Its an added bonus that Haruma Miura is in the second movie, its just a shame about the hair colour... It really didn't suit him (T_T).

Name: 佐藤 健 (Takeru Sato)
Actor - Series:Fuyu no Sakura (2011)
Q10 as Fukai Heita (2010)
Bloody Monday 2 as Kujo Otoya (2010)
Ryoma den as Okada Izo (2010)
Hontou ni Atta Kowai Hanashi Kao no Michi (2009)
MW Dai-0-sho as Takashi Morioka (2009)
Mei-chan no Shitsuji as Shibata Kento (2009)
Bloody Monday as Kujo Otoya (2008)
ROOKIES SP as Okada Yuya (2008)
ROOKIES as Okada Yuya (2008)
Kamen Rider Den-O as Nogami Ryotaro (2007)
Princess Princess D as Kono Toru (2006)
Actor - Movies: Beck as Yukio "Koyuki" Tanaka(2010)
ROOKIES－Sotsugyo－ as Okada Yuya (2009)
GOEMON as Kirigakure Saizou (young) (2009)
Saraba Kamen Rider Den-O: Final Countdown as Nogami Ryotaro (2008)
Kamen Rider Den-O & Kiva: Climax Deka as Nogami Ryotaro (2008)
Kamen Rider Den-O: I am Born! as Nogami Ryotaro(2007)
Birth-date: 1989-March-21
Birthplace: Iwatsuki, Saitama, JapanFirst saw him Bloody Monday and I've got to say.. Damn can this guy have great hair styles!!! I wish my hair was like his (>.

I have seen him in Mei-Chan no Shitsuji, which he was pretty cute in. It was a good series to watch, but it wasn't that great. Not one I could easily watch over and over again. But it was great to see a series of actors that I didn't know so well for a change. Yet it wasn't as bad as Princess Princess D.... I sat through have an episode, saw him in a PINK FRILLY DRESS and was like "EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW MY EYES!!!!" I'm sorry but that image forever haunts me. Yes he is cute.... but don't stick him in a dress (T_T)

A few weeks ago I saw BECK. Definitely one to watch. Although, I was a little disappointed.. I couldn't hear Takeru sing (T_T) I was all ready for hearing him sing and it would be great... but no! They just has music without the vocal. So sad (TT__TT) But the movie really is good to watch. Even if you kind of try not to listen to Mizushima Hiro's American accent. It can be a little off putting at times. But you have to give him points for trying.

Name: 田中聖 (Tanaka Koki)
Artist: Second "T" in KAT-TUN
Actor: Hissatsu Shigotonin 2010 SP as Ren (2010)
Rikon Syndrome (2010)
Hissatsu Shigotonin 2009 as Ren (2009)
Tokkyu Tanaka San Go as Tanaka Ichiro (2007)
Byakkotai as Shinoda Gisaburo and Shinoda Yusuke (2007)
Tatta Hitotsu no Koi as Kusano Kou (2006)
My Boss My Hero as Manabe Kazuya (2006)
Takusan no Ai wo Arigato (N2006)
Kindaichi Shonen no Jikenbo 2005 (2005)
Never Land as Iwatsuki Shigehisa (2001)
Kowai Nichiyoubi 2000 (2000)
Tenshi ga Kieta Machi (2000)
Nekketsu Ren-ai Dou (1999)
Birth-date: 1985-Nov-05
Birthplace: Chiba, Japan

Now he is the second sexiest member of KAT-TUN. I don't care what anyone else thinks. He is the rapper in KAT-TUN and is amazing dancer. And he is really at his sexiest when he wear Gothic clothing. Black just suites him. Well it could just be the Goth within me that really is attracted to it. But it honestly does suit him. He has a unique singing style, so you can always tell his parts from others. The same can really be said about Taguchi as well. But they are all great as a group and I wouldn't change them in any way.

As for Tanaka's songs.. MAKE U WET and MAKE U WET ~Chapter 2~ are my favourites (♦__♦) Now I know I have a pervy side.. But damn is he HOT when he sings them. You just watch him perform MAKE U WET ~Chapter 2~ in the KAT-TUN World Tour NO MORE PAIN 2010.. So much sex appeal its enough to kill someone from loss of blood. Again, I have to tell my self to stop watching it on repeat because too much of a good thing is bad for you.

Now the only drama I've seen Tanaka is Tatta Hitotsu no Koi when he starred along side Kame. It took me a few episodes to realise where I recognized him from but he really was cute and it wasn't untill I bothered to look for the Cast list that I figured out who he was. He really was adorable in the series, He didn't get that many scene's but it was still great to see him act rather than performing sexy dance moves. I am interested in seeing other drama's that he is in. But I have so many on list that I need.

There are a few more Actors/Singers that have caught my attention, but I don't think I should list them all right now......

Teaching English in Japan

Ok…. So a co-worker suggested that if I really want to go to Japan, then I should think about teaching there. At first I didn't take her seriously. But now, after really considering it, it doesn't seem like a bad idea. I was thinking of taking a teacher career when I was at Uni, but I didn't really get that far. Plus now as I don't have to worry tying myself down ready for my ex to move in with me. I've got the freedom to go there for a year.. maybe more if I find myself an Japanese hunk when I'm there >.>

anyway…

I looked into the qualifications that I would need, and all I need to get is a TEFL certification. I have already got a degree, so I don't have to worry about that. Although, the course prices aren't as cheap as I hoped, with the company I work for, they allow workers to get money for educational courses. So I'm going to enquire more at work and see what is really available for me. I might as well get some of the fees paid for me as its an experience of a life time. Plus I have a passionate (not really in the concept of having a fetish for Asian guys… but I guess that could be included) admiration for the country, and as I plan to go on holiday there next year, I might at well do something really worth while, right?!

I know that its a big thing to decide. But it will be something I will never forget! Plus if I do get accepted into a teaching position in Japan, then isn't one way to learn the language? At least then I will be surrounded my native speakers. So it will be easier to pick up the language. Now I know I won't be going this year, but I can at least take the teaching course and then try to apply ready for the new school year in.. April isn't it? At least then I can continue to work at the company I'm with right now, get my house ready for me to live in. So while I'm in Japan, I can possible let my house mate run the place, so if I come back for a holiday, at least then I will get to relax in my own house. Could even bring some friends back with me (this is just me thinking btw… that's if I get a job there…). Plus, it would be so cool to be called “Sensei” hehehe

My Crazy Station

Well I've just spent the past 2 1/2 hours cleaning my room... well mostly organizing my desk :P so here is the result .... well desk's not desk.. I'm greedy and have two :P

Hajimashite/はじめまして!

Kanji:
はじめまして、私はサラです。私は25歳のスーパーアシスタントをしています。私は特にONE OK ROCK、松下優也とKAT-TUN、音楽を聴くのが大好き。私は現在日本語を勉強しようとしている。日本への旅、来年の準備ができました。私のガイドになりたいがある場合は誰か…私に連絡してください！

Romaji:
Hajimemashite, Sarah desu. Watashi wa niyuugo-sai no supaashisutanto o shiteimasu. Watashi wa tokuni ONE OK ROCK, Matsushita Yuya to KAT-TUN, ongaku o kiku no ga daisuki. Watashi wa genzai nihongo o benjyo shiyou to shiteimasu. Nippon e no tabi, wa reinen no junbi ga dekimashita. Watashi no gaido ni naritaiga aru baai wa… Watashi ni renraku shite kudasai!

English:
Nice to meet you, I'm Sarah. I am a 25 year old supermarket assistant. I love to listen to music, especially ONE OK ROCK, Matsushita Yuya and KAT-TUN. I am currently trying to study Japanese. Ready for my trip next year to Japan . If there somebody who wants to be my guide… Please contact me!

I so hope that its near enough correct. I was sat there for a while trying to work out what to write and then decided on something simple. If there is something wrong, then please point it out to me!!! I don't want to offend anyone

Sooo.......

I seriously am wondering if I am going to get any where in life. First of all, things just don't seem to be brightening up. I'm still down as ever. I just think that there really is nothing in life that could possibly help cheer me up.


OK... so there might be one thing.. and that's if Haruma Miura suddenly replied to this message saying he is happy to show me around Japan when I go on holiday there. And that we could hang out and help each other learn the other's language. Then I would be very happy indeed! But I would seriously be surprised if that ever happened. Great if it did.... but still far off. Oh if you don't know who is... don't worry about. But if you do... He is cute right???? I mean he is an awesome actor.. he played Kazehaya VERY VERY VERY well!!!


But anyway....

Secondly, I've lost of track of what I really want to do. I know I really want to go to Japan. I really want to experience their culture for myself. Its all good and well seeing in Anime's, Manga's and Japanese Drama's. But Its just not the same. Now I know its going to be expensive. So I'm going to wait for next years bonus to help pay for the trip. I've even started to learn Japanese and I can pick up well on some phrases and some words. But I still need to improve before I can actually say that I can speak Japanese. However, I don't want to go on my own. I know at that a friend of mine is also learning Japanese in preparation for the trip also. But two gal's going on their own isn't right. So more gal's are needed to come along too :P

Also, I would prefer if we were able to meet up some people of Japan. Just to avoid getting lost and failure to remember the correct words to say and meeting someone who doesn't speak English. Now that could just be troublesome for everyone. Although the internet is everyone's friend if we do get lost :P

If you fancy coming to Japan with me, then please contact me (^_^)/

Speed Painting Video

For all of those who are interested....

www.youtube.com/watch?v=AcDBIR6pXBQ

I made a new speed painting video on how I draw and paint eye's.. if your curious to see, then please watch and fav. Although I will say the video didn't stay in wide-screen so if it looks squashed up.... thats way!

Links just don't seem to be working right for me recently T____T

More Speed Painting Video's

Hopefully this work this time.

Eye's
www.youtube.com/watch?v=AcDBIR6pXBQ

Skin
www.youtube.com/watch?v=HJUgXzBDui4

Please comment and fav!

I know the piece isn't finished yet, so please don't tell me that the hair and clothes aren't done yet. I'm showing the piece as it progresses.

The person, for all you ONE OK ROCK fans like me, is the fabulous and cute Toru Yamashita.

Ever Changing

So Its time for a change again. Now this site of mine has moved to a new host and finally being arranged in a more suitable fashion for a homepage/blog site. I think its some that show progression at least. It might not seem like much to other people but to, its something to call my own. Although it did take a while to finally get round to sorting it out the way I really wanted it. The current product is very satisfactory. Something that is simple and easy to navigate around. Hopefully without any confusing menu's or links.

I do think its about time to stop with the student attitude and mannerisms that I seem still to be holding onto. I don't know why but I'm still someone who spends most of their time asleep or drawing. I don't watch anime as much as I used to. But that is mostly because I've managed to catch up with the anime's I really want to watch and I'm always in constant search for new series. I do also go to work although I only work four days as week. So its hardly going to take up most of my time. But I would love to have more hour's. I just don't want to seem pushy so I'm going to patiently wait for my next review about my work hours and job prospects.

Why is it that as soon as January starts to change to February, that I suddenly think of new years resolutions? Its not really much of a new year if the first month is soon to pass. Its just going to be a new goal right? Well... I've decided that I not only need to start loosing weight and go back to wearing size 10 clothes (which still seem to fit me, which is a little strange....). I also need to really start thinking about waking up more at proper times. Waking at 12pm isn't really healthy. I have been going to sleep around 2am but waking up almost 10 hours later.... Surely must not be helping me either. Hopefully when I start being more active and really focusing on loosing weight at getting to 8.5 Stone or 9 Stone. Something that is more of a reasonable weight. But I really need to be focused on reaching the goal. I don't want my boyfriend to marry a fat, horrible little me.

New music, New me

Well recently I've been listening to a lot of Japanese Rock. Some of the bands are really really good



ONE OK ROCK

Taka - Vocals

Toru - Guitar and Vocals

Ryota - Bass

Tomoya - Drums

My favourite tracks by then are; Wherever you are, Lair, My Sweet Baby,  Yume Yume and Nobody's Home. I dunno how I suddenly decided to see what they were like but I'm so glad I did. Their latest album Niche Syndrome (2010) is definitely the best so far in my personal opinion.

I think the reason for liking them is because they don't sing just random words in English/Engrish but whole verses and choruses. It makes a change from hearing some tracks where there is only a few occasional words in English and the rest in Japanese. So it makes a nice change. But they have a really great sound that makes me want to listen to them over and over again!

They also make me want to start my own band where I can hopefully play bass and sing.. so if anyone is up for it.. LET ME KNOW! I also play piano too if that will spark your interest :P



Abingdon Boys School

Nishikawa

SUNAO

Toshiyuki Kish

Shibasaki Hiroshi

The first track I fell in with from ABS is Howling, which is the OP to Darker Than Black, one of my favourite anime's and really did love this track! And then when I heard the other tracks they did for Anime's, I just had to listen to their albums and Love it!!  Abingdon Boys School Abingdon Road is my favourite album with the tracks From Dusk Till Dawn, JAP, STRENGTH, and Kimi ni Uta. Although Fre@k Show from their teaching materials album is another one of my fav's.

They might not sing many words in English but their sound is one that is easy to love and love. They are also the first Japanese band that I decided to listen to. They opened up my musical vocabulary.



Monoral

AniSS - Vocal, Guitar, songs, arrangements

Ali - Bass, Guitar, songs, arrangements

Now I first heard their track to Ergo Proxy when I watched it years ago and Loved it. Of course, that anime has a great soundtrack anyway. So of course the OP track is also going to be awesome! Their track Kiri and Perfect Gold are probably one of their best tracks but then all of their other tracks aren't that far behind. They are really a relaxed rock type duo but are still great to listen to.

Again, if you like listening to a band that sings in English, then they are another band you should listen to. I don't know what else I can say about them really. Just that you wouldn't really class them as a Japanese band if you heard their tracks but as long as they are great to listen to, then thats all that matters right???


Dir En Grey

Kyo - Vocals

Kaoru - Guitar

Die - Guitar

Toshiya - Bass

Shinya - Drums

Now I don't listen to Dir En Grey much but when I do, I can not complain at all! They are probably one of the best Alternate Metal Japanese Band. They might have a very metal style compared to the other bands I listen but it doesn't make me like them even less. Its also really hard to pick out any favourite tracks. They are all great to listen to so picking out the best is really really hard.

UVERworld

Takuya∞

Katsuya

Akira

Nobuto

Shintarō

Now they might be most well known to anime lovers as a band who has done a few tracks for Bleach. But once you start to listen to their albums... oh boy! Definitely a must listen to band. I only started to listen them like a few weeks ago so trying to pick out a favourite track is again hard. But the albums AwakEVE, Timeless and Proglution are my faves to listen to.  Always good to listen to in the same playlist as ONE OK ROCK.

So I can't really complain about that :P I really am a rock chick who can just simply listen to this band and know I've chosen well. Totally can't find anything bad to say about them. But once I really listen to them more I'm sure my favourite tracks will pop out and I do promise to post them here!
Coldrain

Masato - Vocals

Y.K.C (Yokochi) - Guitar

Sugi (Kazuya) - Guitar and Backing vocals

RxYxO (Ryo) - Bass and backing vocals

Katsuma - Drums

Only started to listen to this band last night and DAMN! If you prefer to listen to a band that sings in English, like ONE OK ROCK, then this is the band for you! Totally an amazing band! I really do like their cover of Stacy Orrico's STUCK. A by far better rocky version! I don't think you can wrong with this band.

All of their songs from their two albums (well the two I have) are amazing! I really don't know what else to say apart from the fact that you just have to listen to them!



Pay Money To My Pain

K - Vocals

PABLO - Guitar

JIN - Guitar

Tsuyoshi - Bass

ZAX - Drums

I've only just heard their tracks and although they are really a screamo band, still a great band to listen to. I did notice that their tracks are also a really decent length. You don't see many tracks that like 5 minutes long any more. And I guess that also helps them create really great music. Although I only started to listen to them, their track HOME... just has to be my favourite! Its a totally amazing song that really is one to listen to!

Have to let this out...

Happy New Year to all my friends who read this  ^___^ thank you so much for all the support you've given me over this past year and helping me to grow more and more in love with Art!! I really wouldn't be able to say I've improved immensely without you. So thank you from the bottom of my heart!

I hope you all started off the New Year well, start as you mean to go on!

For my new years resolution I'm going to start saying how I truly feel. No more worrying about what other's think of me but being who I truly am. So far so good at the moment. I've already got a few heavy weights off my chest. Although some might seem as a little harsh but I go by the moral philosophy of "Treat others as you yourself wish to be treated". If your kind to me, I will be kind back. However, if your bitch to me, then expect the same in return. If you can't understand that, then why are you talking to me. If you can't take what you dish out then why say it in the first place? Don't play the victim when your the person who started it. It just drives me insane when someone does that. What's the point of saying something so hurtful to other but you can't take it.. Its like your bullying other people because you don't want to appear too weak unless someone stands up to you and then you start showing how weak you truly are.

I didn't really expect to be called "the bitch" so soon after the start of 2011 but to be perfectly honest, I'm kind of glad they did. I can take being called a bitch. Because some times, if someone pisses me off, then I really am a bitch. But when that person then has a tantrum because I said I can take it and then say how I feel about them. Is something one should expect from me. Call me a bitch and you called a bitch back. Although I wish I would have to result in swearing often as I only swear when I'm really pissed off, I would prefer to settle a matter in a more adult fashion and discuss more about the problems then to have a slagging match. But if the situation calls for it, then so be it.

You might be wondering why I'm saying all this. And it won't make much sense to you. So let me explain:

I don't normal speak what I really feel. I'm an introverted person who keeps to themselves. I don't tend to speak up to myself unless angry, which doesn't happen often. So I tend to just take what others say and then dwell on it later. I suppose, you could say I'm influenced by others around me. Always trying to be the way others expect from me. Not being truly honest with myself. So its time for the final change. No more want to please others. If they can't take me for who I really am. Then don't even bother wasting your time trying to get to know me. Because it won't work. But for those who do want to take the time to get to know me, then I really do appreciate your friendship :)